Last week was my first week ‘back to work’. My moms bestie asked me to help her with a ‘special project’ for two weeks.. so I agreed. I was nervous and scared and stressed. Know what happens when you combine all three of those things? Cold sores.. right on the corner of my mouth. Its ridiculous and Im over it and it needs to be gone. [Yes.. its still hanging around!]
I digress.
My first two days were busy. I was working and enjoyed what I was doing and the kids were fine at daycare. I even made delicious crockpot enchiladas [holla.. thanks Jessi!] on Monday and felt like supermom.
Then Ryley on Wednesday started to get cranky. She had a melt down on Thursday when I dropped her at daycare because she didnt get to shut the car door. I mean melt.down. She threw herself down in the parking lot and cried. When we got inside she ran back towards the front door to try and get back to the car.
And I get it.. she misses our routine. And I do too! I miss them and worry and stress every minute Im at work. It makes me sad that after I pick them up from daycare we get maybe 3 hours together before they go to bed. That breaks my heart. I want more then that!
I miss blogging too. I want to be able to comment on my bloggy buddies sites and link up to everyones awesome parties.. but I cant. Im in bed by 10:30 and even then I wake up grumpy because I didnt get enough sleep. And the gym? Pffft.. whats that? I havent been in a week and I feel horrible. I just dont have the time. At all.
Work. I spent the first two days working on a special project they had.. and then I was sent to the file room. And Ive been filing away. I dont mind it.. I just dont enjoy it. But its easy money and we need that right now.
I do work with some pretty awesome ladies. My moms bestie makes me laugh like crazy and the other ladies are nice. Plus on Friday we ordered Mexican food. And not any Mexican food.. the best Mexican food in town. They make a two foot taco! Thats right. Friday was also casual day.. that kinda made me happy.
I dont know how working moms do this. You guys are amazing. I love you working moms.. every single one!
But I dont know if I can do this all the time. This work thing. I think that it would be great financially if I worked full time. We could pay off our debt [yes we have debt.. hello student loans!] and start saving money for a house. I have a degree and Im reminded of that every month when I make the payment. Im also reminded that I got the degree in order to get a better job. And I have no job. I feel selfish. I feel like I should be doing something to help our situation. But my kids are far more important then buying a house right now.
What Im trying to say is I dont have it all together right now. And Im ok with that. We got through week one without any major battles [besides the car door incident] and hopefully week two flies by. Oh.. and Im not going to have a menu this week. The sheer idea stresses me out even more. Dont worry.. I wont forget to feed the kids. I just want one less thing to worry about.
If you have a menu or yummy recipe this week please link it up in the comments below. Dont let me Debbie Downer post stop you from sharing your delicious foodies!
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Kim says
Oh Kelley- You have the right mind set about your kids. All things will turn out right and this will just be a blip on the sonar screen of your life. Keep plugging away! I also get cold sores and they are a pain in the well, lip! My doctor gave me a prescription for Valtrex, which as anti-viral medicine and I take it as soon as I feel one starting. It keeps them really small, dries out quickly AND shortens it's hideous lifespan!
Also not to act like your mother but we used Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University course and got out of debt super fast. He has a book (same name) which I think is just as good as the course and costs less which you might check out. Just some great tips on budgeting etc and paying off school oans quickly.
Hope this week goes superfast so yo can get back to those sweet kiddos!
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Amy - while wearing heels says
Kelley! You'll have plenty of time, when the kids go off to school, to pay off your debt. Enjoy the next week, this too shall pass…sometimes, even the most grateful of stay at home moms, needs to get out in the world to come back home and remember how blessed we are to have this job (believe me, there are days I need that reminder). Keep on chugging.
Tiffany says
I love you girl!! Keep your chin up!! I will get my post to you by tomorrow night I promise so that'll make one less blog post you have to worry about 🙂 And now I know exactly what I am going to write!!
Dawn says
My mom always says, “You can only do what you can only do.” Sounds like you are doing the best you can. Rest in that knowledge!!
Matt and Meg says
I totally understand how you feel. I hate paying my student loan every month and yet I am not using my degree and we really could use the money too but I agree our kids need us but if push came to shove you would and can make it work! I give you tons of credit! Go Momma!
Eleni says
I hear you. Being a working mommie is not easy. When I had my first little one I went back after 6 months, which mostly covered day school, the nanny, and for our family to have insurance. Needless to say those steps aren't easy to take.
I'm a believer that everything happens for a reason and my husbands job ending allowed us to reprioritze. I'm a stay at home mom if two, living well in less with debt that keeps getting paid off, and am happy to say I'm glad I made the decision to be home. I know it's not for everyone. Blogging, teaching classes, and working with one family at a time has helped me feel the bigger picture of giving back. Keep your head high and hang those kiddo pics up.
Jessi says
I feel the same way about working moms. I have NO idea how they do it! I would be exhausted, dinner would never get cooked and forget laundry!! Haha.
And, um, yeah, that mexican food looks amazing!! Is that the taco or a quesadilla? Either way, yum-o!
Lianne says
Aww, sweet friend! I know you're definitely having a hard time with this but it will be over before you know it! And you're SO right…those kiddos are WAY more important than any house! 🙂 You're doing great! Keep it up!! And dinner or no dinner…you're still a super mom!!!!!
xoxo
Lianne
folkhaven says
Awww, Kelley. Sorry it is so stressful right now. I know I would feel the same way if I were in your shoes. Just a couple of thoughts. You are there for your children now, but they won't always be small. This is the season you are in now, and later there will be opportunity to put that education to work. You are an awesome Mama and you will never regret the time you have with your kids. I know you know that already! In the meantime, this next week will pass and you will probably enjoy much of it, especially the comraderie with co-workers (oh, I do miss that!) and perhaps more incredible Mexican food! (My son is the same way about the car door now. It's funny what they get fixated on!) Keep your chin up!
MrsLeigh says
i hope to be a working mom once i get my degree done.. i envy the stay at home moms though.
Addicted to Recipes says
I am so nervous about going back to work in August….
On a lighter note, I'm passing along the Sunshine Award to you! Check out my blog for all the details: http://iamaddictedtorecipes.blogspot.ca/2012/06/sunshine-award.html
Nicole says
I don't particularly like filing, either. I always try to bribe my sister to do mine. 😉
Umm… I would like to come visit you (duh) and eat the two foot taco. HOLY MOLY! That taco is heaven in food form fo reals, yo! xoxo
Kelly says
Girl I KNOW what you are talking about! I worked when I just had Ian and it was TOUGH to do everything and I cooked ONCE a week and that's pretty much it, The other nights it was either take out or something EASY BUT i do have a quick yummy pasta recipe for you! Literally like 15 min and you are eating! http://thehoutzhouseparty.blogspot.com/2012/04/jarrett-pasta-pure-yummy-pure-easy.html
Melissa says
Hang in there. It will be over before you know it and the money will be nice. I'm also still paying for my school loan and haven't had a job in quite a few years. I think that taco may be worth the work though. I love Mexican food!
Melissa
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Debra Kapellakis says
This too shall pass…
MiMi says
I can't focus after reading “Two foot taco.”
Chrissy says
Hang in there! I'm a single girl and admire how working moms AND stay-at-home moms handle it all. I work full-time and then come home and work on the house (and blog) at night and on the weekends and can't even imagine how I would get that done if I had kids also. Kudos to you and hang tight. We'll stick around and wait until you have more time for your bloggy duties. 🙂